No Diving

As I read back over my blogs I am quite disappointed in myself. I started this blog as a way to get my thoughts out on paper, then sort through them, and I anticipated coming to new understandings of myself. But as I read over these, they are just recaps of activities. I have not dug deep within to confront myself like I had planned. I have used this blog to religiously record happenings that I would likely remember anyway. Any thoughts or opinions have remained shallow and thus new awakenings have not happened. I don't have to wonder why. Because I live my life on the surface level, keep my relationships on the surface level, and never let my thoughts wander too far from the comfort of what I know. How sad. It's pretty freaking sad.