This post is an update to this post.
Step One -- So there we go, step one is make humility a top priority and let go of
being right because of the perceived arrogance that comes with it.
Let's see, I think I've made good progress on this one. I had an incredible opportunity for growth over the last several weeks. I've had the privilege of having frequent interactions with someone who pushes my buttons and brings out my argumentative spirit. I've made thoughtful progress during conversations, as well as sat down to reflect on how things went after most conversations I had with her. (Wow. That makes me sound like such a dork.) I thought about what I said, the tone I used, and how I might say or do something different in my next interaction so that I am displaying a respectful attitude. It's far from perfect or even natural; it's something I will continue to be mindful of. I think I've gotten better, but there's still lots of room for improvement.
Step OneB -- The next thing we talked about was at what point in my relationships do I put the wall up.
I've made big progress on this one too! This one has been surprisingly fun, even for an introvert with self worth issues. I've made conscience efforts to be vulnerable in conversations. I've given a lot of friends a lot of information lately. It's been fun to see how they are able to connect with me when I give them even the smallest bit to latch on to. It's been healing for me to share things and have friends follow up in a meaningful way. It's also been fun to reciprocate! I've never been a fan of small talk, and I considered most things small talk. I avoided it at all cost because I didn't have any interest in knowing about someone else's personal life, and I didn't want the responsibility of following up. I didn't want to be vulnerable. I've done so much better about this, and have even enjoyed it. I've already seen a couple of my relationships grow stronger because of this. I feel like now I can be more caring and compassionate, which is something I always wanted and never knew how to do. I've seen awesome growth in this area.
Step OneC -- This step is going to be a lot of looking at a current filter, deciding
if it was put there by someone or something else or if it truly is
something that is part of me now.
This is a slow process. I think I've made slight improvements towards this. I've made time to do things with friends who push me to be real and not just a follower. I haven't really had the time to retreat by myself to think about this one, but hopefully I can try that this summer. Change will be slow, but hopefully long lasting.
No comments:
Post a Comment