Vow Writing

B and I have been planning this vow renewal celebration for our 13th anniversary for about a year now.  It's tomorrow.  I don't have vows written yet.  I'm not totally sure what my deal is.  I like to write; writing usually comes pretty easy for me, and I always have lots to say.  I've had some ideas swirling in my head for a while, but every time I sit down to write, they don't sound right to me.  I have a page written, but I don't think I love any of it.  I keep coming back to it, thinking I'll be inspired to use it as a springboard to getting the perfect vows written.  That hasn't happened yet. 

It might be because I want them to be perfect.  I feel like I have a lot to fix, a lot to promise to make up for, and a lot that I want to acknowledge that I've over come.  I am in a different place than I ever have been before, and I want to properly appreciate where I am, without sounding like I'm magically fixed.  That's a tall order for a two minute speech.